星期一, 1月 21, 2008

be finished with the past

"If you go on throwing responsibility on the other, remember that you will always remain a slave because nobody can change the other. How can you change the other? Has anybody ever changed the other? Whatsoever happens to you - you feel sad, just close your eyes and watch your sadness - follow where it leads, go deeper into it. Soon you will come to the cause. Maybe you will have to travel long, because this whole life is involved; and not only this life but many other lives are involved. You will find many wounds in you, which hurt, and because of those wounds you feel sad - they are sad; those wounds have not gone dry yet; they are alive. The method of going back to the source, from the effect to the cause, will heal them. How does it heal? Why does it heal? What is the phenonmenon implied in it?

Wheven you go backward, the first thing you drop is throwing the responsibility on tohers, because if you throw the responsibility on the other, you go outward. Then the whole proecess is wrong, you try to find the cause in the other: "Why is this wife nasty?" Then the 'why' goes on penertrating into the wife's behavior. You have missed the first step and then the whole process will be wrong.

"Why am i unhappy? Why am I angry?" - close the eyes and let it be a deep meditation. Lie down on the floor, close the eyes, relax the body, and feel why you are angry. Just forget the wife; that is an excuse - A,B,C,D whatsoever, forget the excuse. Just go deeper into yourself, penetrate the anger. Use anger itself as a river; into the anger you flow and the anger will take you inward. You will find subtle wounds in you. The wife looked nasty because she touched a subtle wound in you, something that hurts. You have always thought that you are not beautiful, your face is ugly, and there is a wound inside. When the wife is nasty, she will make you aware of your face. She will say, "Go and look in the mirror!" - something hurts...

You close the eyes, feel the anger, let is arise in its totality so that you can see it completely, what it is. Then let the energy help you to move toward the past, because the anger is coming from the past. It cannot come from the future, of course. The future has not yet come into being. It is not coming from the present. This is the whole standpoint of karma: it cannot come from the future because the future is not yetl it cannot come from the present because you don't know at all what the present is. The present is known only by the awakened ones. You live only in the past, so it mst be coming from somewhere else in your past. The wound must be somewhere in your memories. Go back. There may not be one wound, there many be many -small, big. Go deeper and find the first wound, the original source of all anger. You will be able to find it if you try, because it is already there. It is there;all your past is still there. It is like a film, rolled and waiting inside. You unroll it, you start looking at the sfilm. This is the beauty of the process; if you can consciously go backward, if you can consciously feel a wound, the wound is immediately headled.

Why is it healded> - because a wound is created by unconsciousness, unawareness. A wound is part of ignorance, sleep. When you conscioiusly go backgward and look at the wound, consciousness is a healing force...

A man who can go backward releases the past. Then the past is no longer functioning, then the past has no more grip on him and the past is finished. And when the past has no place in your being, you are available to the present, never before it.

You need space - the past is so much inside, a junkyward of dead things, there is no space for the present to enter. That junkyard goes on dreaming about the future, so half the place is filled with that which si no more half the place is filled with that which is not yet. And the present? - it simply waits outside the door, That's why the present is nothing but a passage, a passage from the past to the future, just a momentary passage.

Be finished with the past - unless you are finished with the past, you are living a ghost life. You life is not true, it is not existentilal. The past lives through you, the dead goes on haunting you. Go backward = whenever you have an opportunity, whenever something happenes in you. Happiness, unhappiness, sadness, anger, jealousy - close the eyes and go backward. Soon you will become efficient in traveling backward, Soon you will be able to go back in time, and then many wounds will open. When those wounds open inside you, don't start doing anything. There is no need to do. You simply watch, look, observe. The wound is there - you simply watch, give your watching engergy to the wound, look at it. Look at it without any judgement -because if you judge, if you say, "This is bad, this should not be so," the wound will close again. Then it will have to hide...

Don't condemn, don't appreciate. You simply be a witness, an unattached observer...

Be detached. Just watch and look. Look with compassion and the healing will happen...

When a detached, compassionate consciousness come to wound. the wound disappears - evaporates. There is no why to it. It is simply natural, it is how it is, it is how it happens. When I say this, I say it from my experience. Try it and experience is possibel for you also. This is the way. " Osho, awareness, p.124-128

只要愛人,不顧身世,不怨恨自己仍舊犯錯,相信自己所想所說,不被以往困擾,包括曾經的出發點以及所說的話,每一個當下都保持清醒,不要再被捲入是非之中。

訴過苦,知道情緒,因由,便排放它,看顧好它,親愛的,今天我叫你聽了我的傷痛,始料未及,那是我沒學懂如何好好看管傷口和以往,它才又生效(!),我知道你也必不快樂,我會看望它待它原好,那麼明天我便可以不再予你以負能量,還你愛和美好,叫你十倍快樂起來,我會做到的。

2 則留言:

Jing 說...

sweet light
carries the shadow of the past,
heavy and unwanted
Until one day Peter knows
tinkle helps his shadow sew
what you regret is part of you.

the wounds will heal
and the light will shine
and on that day
you are finally mine.

iris 說...

謝謝你讓我讀到這一段,雙宜 :)